While studying by myself in george green library today, i suddenly visualized myself in the raffles library, sitting at one of the four persons table with two of my prc scholar friends. How much time has elapsed. Those memories are not very exciting, but surprisingly deeped etched in my mind. Perhaps because those days were a routine; after 2S01A finished classes real early on mondays and tuesdays, half the class (most of whom are guys) would put their bags in the wooden black shelves along the dark and musty corridor just outside the entrance to the library, and then head down to the canteen for lunch.

After lunch we usually all headed back to the library. Lots of tutorials to do; fmath, physics and chem. not to mention s papers! but then it wasn't the case that i could solve them anyway! Studying with a bunch of friends then was pretty good fun. Sometimes other classmates would pop over and start chatting... most of the time, gossiping was our shared and honed skill! those were good times :) Year 2 in jc was spent pretty much in this way.. of course choir took up the other half of my life in school. How i miss those days! Those days of yore, of much focus, of knowing what I really wanted in life.

When i eased back into reality and out of my imagination of the past, i sensed even more starkly the quietness around me, the lack of people. It's not that I don't have friends to study with now, think it's more like I'm choosing to be this way.

A wave of nostalgia; then, all i wanted was for A levels to be over! Seriously, before i knew it, two years in college were just over in the blink of an eye. i wonder what it would be like if all of us are transformed back into those days, going through the same routine as we did, and having the same people around you. I think I'll live them so differently from how i actually lived them.

The past aside, I'm keeping hopeful about my future.

Auden said "Love each other or perish".

I think, "Keep hope in your life, or perish too".