Jet lagging, after 2 weeks?
I'm experiencing my 1st insomnia after coming home for 2 weeks. It's 2.56am now, and Im wide awake. Spent 1 1/2 hours lying in bed, but a billion thoughts just kept ringing really loudly in my head! Haha... whatever that i learnt in Psych about Random Interval Generation, i myself am not trying it out. Think it's a better idea to spend this period of awakeness surfing the net, and now this.
Went to Blue Moo cafe @ YMCA tonight for Budak Pantai concert. Music was great, company was great, ambience was really nice, but weather was hot. what a pity. I walked through Douby Ghaut mrt station prior to the concert and found myself in a sea of fellow young singaporean adults at the basement of PS. Overwhelming. I no longer like crowds. Or I've discovered that i SO do not like crowds. And i do not like being amongst people so similar in age and looks to me. Haha..what's this???? And then i was constantly half-expecting to bump into people that i once knew, which made me REALLY self-conscious.
One very interesting point that I've discovered about myself is that I don't really care about how I look and what image I portray when I'm in Notts. But once i'm back here, I start to become self-conscious. Pretty much image conscious, very aware of how i "should" look.. which is SO unhealthy. Save me! I only want to care enough to feel good and comfortable about how I look, and not anymore than that!
I think... maybe it's becos i have the mindset that no one is looking at me in england, whereas over here i think... people are watching! And with the sweltering heat, i notice that the natural consequence of the human body to sweat simply makes everyone look and feel worse than they should.
Haha.. no matter what, home is still home lar, just let me complain and vent off that bit of unsatisfaction, and i'll embrace this country still :) Wah, the chinese idiom "心静自然凉" is really a necessary teaching in Singapore!
I'm experiencing my 1st insomnia after coming home for 2 weeks. It's 2.56am now, and Im wide awake. Spent 1 1/2 hours lying in bed, but a billion thoughts just kept ringing really loudly in my head! Haha... whatever that i learnt in Psych about Random Interval Generation, i myself am not trying it out. Think it's a better idea to spend this period of awakeness surfing the net, and now this.
Went to Blue Moo cafe @ YMCA tonight for Budak Pantai concert. Music was great, company was great, ambience was really nice, but weather was hot. what a pity. I walked through Douby Ghaut mrt station prior to the concert and found myself in a sea of fellow young singaporean adults at the basement of PS. Overwhelming. I no longer like crowds. Or I've discovered that i SO do not like crowds. And i do not like being amongst people so similar in age and looks to me. Haha..what's this???? And then i was constantly half-expecting to bump into people that i once knew, which made me REALLY self-conscious.
One very interesting point that I've discovered about myself is that I don't really care about how I look and what image I portray when I'm in Notts. But once i'm back here, I start to become self-conscious. Pretty much image conscious, very aware of how i "should" look.. which is SO unhealthy. Save me! I only want to care enough to feel good and comfortable about how I look, and not anymore than that!
I think... maybe it's becos i have the mindset that no one is looking at me in england, whereas over here i think... people are watching! And with the sweltering heat, i notice that the natural consequence of the human body to sweat simply makes everyone look and feel worse than they should.
Haha.. no matter what, home is still home lar, just let me complain and vent off that bit of unsatisfaction, and i'll embrace this country still :) Wah, the chinese idiom "心静自然凉" is really a necessary teaching in Singapore!
posted by Zig | 7:58 PM
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