Before I fell asleep last night, it occurred to me that I have lost some of my child ideals and characteristics. I used to have a very strong faith that everyone of us is born to our family for a reason, that God put us IN THERE. And I would always thank God for all that He has given me. As i grew older, I think there are too many outside influences that made me forget about these core beliefs or watered them down. I don't mean that I no longer think that way, I mean that I forgot that I thought that way.

Also, I had a better grasp of single-minded focus. The "Zone" as sports psychologists and sportsmen have come to recognise, when their minds are so clear, so optimistic, and they have precise decision-making skills. I vaguely recall times when I worked through mathematical proofs in school, when I also felt that I was somewhere in the "Zone".. when every step brought me closer to equating the LHS of the equation to the RHS, and i just knew that this was going to be a good one. i think at those times the alpha rhythm in my brain were at their peak! I want to get them back! :)

I want to return to the basics, to the untainted, uninfluenced mental states.