I'm at the moment that i want to last forever. I want to shout from the mountain top, do a crazy dance, HUG everyone who's on the mountain top with me, "Exams are OVER!!!!!!!!! YIPPIE! WHEEEE!!!!!!!!"

The past months have been really really LLLLLLONNNNNNNNNNG and draggy. An arduous time, a life that's not very nice to live at all! It's harmful. Exams are harmful. I felt like I was simply trying to commit everything to memory.. and so little thinking involved. Ironic isn't it? I felt like I stopped thinking ever since the exams started. Ok maybe not so exaggerated. But towards the last week.... i REALLY REALLY felt that way.

Enough of psychology, for at least a month. Too much psych is harmful. No more looking at textbooks for at least..2 more months?

The clouds that were shrouding the sun in my life have cleared, and im feeling HAPPY and FREE again! :) Heaviness is unbearable. The bearable lightness of being. That is So true.

Am going to explore London for the next two days... there're still so much of it that I havent seen or experienced! Will be great:)

Auf Wiedersehen, mein Freuden!

"Everyday can be legendary,
Every minute an endless surprise.
You could be the next angel in disguise."

-Corrinne May

After 4 papers in 6 days, i now have 1 more to go. I need motivation! My focus from last week is momentarily lost, just keep thinking about home! Not even thinking about italy now hai.

Dunno how summer would be like... Would i be happy at work or not? Meet new and nice people? Travel to msia to visit frens? Or to china to visit distant relatives? I don't know, but i just cant wait for next tuesday to be over... Shouldnt be day-dreaming too much, sigh!

Corrinne May's music and lyrics have an undeniable comforting and soothing effect on me. I feel so, so disappointed at myself today. Haven't felt like this for quite awhile u know. But breaking down and letting all the frustrations and bottled feelings flow help to ease the unhappiness and all that disappointment. The lyrics below helped to ease some parts of it...

Everything In It's Time

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer, To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time

Yupyup... it's not a big thing really! A pretty small one at that. Shan't be affected too much. Shall move on! Many more things waiting to reveal themselves in little suprises in my life!

Eeeks. Im becoming more and more absent-minded.. can't believe i just totally forgot to send an email or a phone call so important! I just knew there was something that i needed to do, but there i was chatting away and feeling sleepy. Argggggrrrrraaaaahhhhhhhhhhh.

Yesterday was a perfect day out. I met Francis, a member of the Friends International Nottingham, at this Globe Cafe one night a few weeks ago. He invited my friends and I on a day trip around Nottingham, but unfortunately in the end only 2 of us could manage. So anyway, he brought us out yesterday, and was one of the most wonderful tourguides I've ever had, except he walked at such a brisk pace that i had to run to keep up! and he's pretty old already... maybe 60+? with 5 children and 13 grandchildren, im just amazed by the energy and enthusiasm coming out of his ears! hee hee.

One of the highlights was to Green's Windmill, where highquality flour is still made by the miller on days when there's wind! Francis's wife even baked with the flour before.. apparently it's very good. He bought j and i each a postcard from there, for us to send home. Mine's on the way :)

I didnt know till yesterday that the founder of Salvation Army, William Booth, was born in Nottingham. We went to his house which is converted into a museum now, and into the very room where he was born. To quote Francis, "Here is a great, great, great man of God". Amazing, to think that Salvation Army has branched out internationally, and touched the lives of thousands, millions, uncountable numbers of poor people worldwide.

Nottingham is actually so rich in history! I wish now that i could turn back time to last year, when pq and jj and zy came.. could and would have brought them to all these places too.. and more! Nevermind. This coming june, i've got a good mind to bring --heehee evil twin-- around. Hope all the plans will fall in place nicely!

One of the most memorable highlights of yesterday was when Francis brought us to his home to meet his wife. A petite lady, who is in my opinion, the epitome of a fine, Bristish lady. Jenny, she's called. Why do i say that? The cake that she baked was absolutely, extremely, Scrumptious! it looked just perfect, like fresh out of the bakery. I can never do that..... and in the living room were evidence of her sewing and knitting.. she knits for every single one of her grandchild.. that's 13 already, and one more coming in a few months' time. phew. Mm.. come to think about it.. my ah ma is just as great too.. making all the pillow cases for us grandchildren, the most recent are my laundry bags with flaps to prevent sticking and what-nots. super high-tech:)

We spoke so much over tea..I just love those conversations with elderly people... they've such rich experiences and rich lives.. i felt in their home very satisfied and fulfilling lives, and most importantly a lot of love. Jenny's a very strong woman i think, with firm opinions. They're both very knowledgeable and open-minded, and have a strong desire to learn. Francis is taking Mandarin lessons (his very interested in chinese culture) and is even taking an exam soon! And jenny is taking piano lessons after stopping for years.. she complained that her fingers are long stiff. What I learnt from them is that it's NEVER, EVER to late to learn. Every day of our lives should be put to learning, no matter what it is. Learning how to cook, to play the piano, to play tennis, to learn how to enjoy the sun and play frisbee.. whatever! Haha random thoughts are streaming into my mind as im typing, so pardon me for my randomness. Mmm...Perhaps the oft-heard criticism of me having (3degrees high temp) (dunno why i cant type in chinese, so go figure) can be my strength too. Euphemism, people say :) Euphemism is just great.

Okay.. that's all for now... people have stopped commenting and tagging. My blog seems pretty quiet.

For the second year in a row, I witness the same tree outside of my window going through the cycle of falling leaves, bracing the cold winter, and now, spring is in the air once again :) All through the branches are small milky green leaves emerging again.. and im here appreciating the little beauties in life!